THE VOICEs-IN-BETWEEN

When my daughter died suddenly in 2021,  my emotions completely froze in shock, grief, sadness, anger, horror and disbelief. Almost four years later, I still experience all of these things and I know it will never stop, but I am beginning to recognize and believe in the signs of her presence in my world since then and right now.

I have received communications  from my daughter through various means, for example, lyrics in music (words) messages have come to me clearly. So although I have written separately about words and music, they aren't necessarily unrelated.  

I will never say goodbye to Kimberley.  I know many people say they regret not having had an opportunity to 'say goodbye' one last time, however I cannot comprehend why anyone would want to do that. 

We lived in New Mexico for many years and part of the draw for me was the vast array of native cultures, traditions, food, arts and spiritual beliefs. There was a beautiful print I saw at the Indian Pueblo Cultural Center in Albuquerque a few years ago as we reached the exit and it resonated 100% with me. I know why I refuse to tell her goodbye now. 

In most of the pueblo languages, there is no word for goodbye. Pueblo people believe in the cyclical nature of existence and believe we will meet our loved ones again, whether in the near future or in a time far off.